pissed

just pissed.
its not even that time of month !
ahhhhhhhh. i wanna cry ;[

obsessed

I'm currently obsessed with this drama called Tree of Heaven. It's a beautiful and tragic story. and I can't get my mind off it. Lee Wan is like super gorgeous :) but he looks kinda ugly here haha. but anyways I went to kings plaza today and i bought a bag and a pair of shoes. I kinda regret buying it but i do really like it. I just dont wanna waste mad money cause I barely have any left since the summer. but anyways i had lab today and it's the last lab so no more lab. and 8 more days till break. :D mad excited. though i got a gay chem test tomorrow which is kinda gay cause i dont know much. :/ i havent been paying attention and in global too. we been doing group work and such. i dont know anyone well in there so i just sit there the whole period doing nothing. which is .... REALLY BORING ?? but yeah. term is almost over and new term coming. hope i know people in my new class ! ;D
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TREE OF HEAVEN <3 fav drama ever. i cried like a little baby. :(

sigh

hmm. well i skipped a day of school on the 4th cause i had a lil fever. i got a lotta work to make up but i havent started cause im such a procrastinator -.- it was pretty fun today actually. idk. it wasnt like a stupid day like i usually had but it wasnt anything special.
afterschool joyce asked me to go to ct to buy a jacket. sigh. i feel like i dont have time for her anymore and that we're becoming more distant. its kinda sad but i cant make time. i wanna make an effort to our friendship but whenever i "think" about it, she asks karman and karman usually always goes with her. i feel like im being replaced. im scared if i tell joyce shes gonna be like ew. what a jealous friend. i dont wanna like ruin our friendship and shit. i guess i'll just have to make more time and stop procrastinating so i really DO have time for her!!

well i just thought of a new year resolution list right now :
-make some time for joyce
-work harder in school
-stop procrastinating
-lose some fat.
-stay healthy

hmm i guess thats about it. hope i'll be able to complete this !!

sick D:

well im like sick right now. gayass mucus is bothering me -_- but on the other hand a lot of great things happened.
dec. 23rd - i meet the wonder girls ;] it was also one month after the break in.
dec. 26th - ken and michelles wedding. it was okay. not anything great and the food wasnt all the good.
dec. 28th ? - cousins and i were supposed to go to iceskating. well it started off with me and joyce going to iceskate but i invited my cousins. it was really stupid cause the line for bryant park was like omg long so i didnt wanna wait that long. but joyce wanted to :/ pretty selfish of me. so we went to eat mcdonalds. it was gay though. we went all the way to bryant park just to eat mcdonalds. ahah. well after that i didnt wanna go home so soon so me and joyce stopped at canal to walk around while my fam went home. we walked around and i got 5 i<3ny tees for 10 bucks;. haa i was excitedcuz i never got a deal like that. but i guess cause its cheap ass material. and i bought this pikachu doll for my friend. joyce got me this big domo pillow and a cute little hello kitty dangly thingy for my phone. and i bought her these fluffy slippers. it was fun-ish. she came over to eat dinner. honestly i didnt want her to come over. ;x cause it would be a big hassle for my parents and this month's outcome$ was like 5thousand bucks. idk. its mean of me i know.
dec. 31st - new years eve and my cousins came over to sleep over. it was fun but there wasnt much space in the house so we had to sleep on the floor but i couldnt sleep. and i was sharing my blanket. i went back to my room and had to offer her to come with me cause she still had my blanket. she took up most of the bed AND the blanket. it was a bad sleep.
jan 1st - NEW YEARS. we went yum cha after sleepover. and had dinner. nothing that special but it was great having the fam over. though they made a big mess. ;x and we watched unborn. it was scary though. but the audio was muted so we watched it w.o the audio and it was still scary as fuck haha.
jan 2nd - well yesterday was kinda boring and blahh. i went to macy's to return the dress for the wedding. yeah yeah i know. its cheap but we dont go to weddings often and i didnt really like that dress. i started to feel sickish so i was like mad dead. and my cousin tagged along and shes such a big spender ;o

tomorrow's school. break is over. as i mentioned before, the outcome was 5 thousand bucks. im like wow. how the hell did we spend so much -.- i wish we were rich so we didnt have to worry about financial probs. and i wish i was a little bit more selfless. im really selfish and it wont hurt me to be selfless. sigh. i wish im gonna be a better person this year. hope i'll have less regrets this year. and i hope my fam will be healthy and nothing bad will happen to them !! <3