pissed

just pissed.
its not even that time of month !
ahhhhhhhh. i wanna cry ;[

obsessed

I'm currently obsessed with this drama called Tree of Heaven. It's a beautiful and tragic story. and I can't get my mind off it. Lee Wan is like super gorgeous :) but he looks kinda ugly here haha. but anyways I went to kings plaza today and i bought a bag and a pair of shoes. I kinda regret buying it but i do really like it. I just dont wanna waste mad money cause I barely have any left since the summer. but anyways i had lab today and it's the last lab so no more lab. and 8 more days till break. :D mad excited. though i got a gay chem test tomorrow which is kinda gay cause i dont know much. :/ i havent been paying attention and in global too. we been doing group work and such. i dont know anyone well in there so i just sit there the whole period doing nothing. which is .... REALLY BORING ?? but yeah. term is almost over and new term coming. hope i know people in my new class ! ;D
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TREE OF HEAVEN <3 fav drama ever. i cried like a little baby. :(

sigh

hmm. well i skipped a day of school on the 4th cause i had a lil fever. i got a lotta work to make up but i havent started cause im such a procrastinator -.- it was pretty fun today actually. idk. it wasnt like a stupid day like i usually had but it wasnt anything special.
afterschool joyce asked me to go to ct to buy a jacket. sigh. i feel like i dont have time for her anymore and that we're becoming more distant. its kinda sad but i cant make time. i wanna make an effort to our friendship but whenever i "think" about it, she asks karman and karman usually always goes with her. i feel like im being replaced. im scared if i tell joyce shes gonna be like ew. what a jealous friend. i dont wanna like ruin our friendship and shit. i guess i'll just have to make more time and stop procrastinating so i really DO have time for her!!

well i just thought of a new year resolution list right now :
-make some time for joyce
-work harder in school
-stop procrastinating
-lose some fat.
-stay healthy

hmm i guess thats about it. hope i'll be able to complete this !!

sick D:

well im like sick right now. gayass mucus is bothering me -_- but on the other hand a lot of great things happened.
dec. 23rd - i meet the wonder girls ;] it was also one month after the break in.
dec. 26th - ken and michelles wedding. it was okay. not anything great and the food wasnt all the good.
dec. 28th ? - cousins and i were supposed to go to iceskating. well it started off with me and joyce going to iceskate but i invited my cousins. it was really stupid cause the line for bryant park was like omg long so i didnt wanna wait that long. but joyce wanted to :/ pretty selfish of me. so we went to eat mcdonalds. it was gay though. we went all the way to bryant park just to eat mcdonalds. ahah. well after that i didnt wanna go home so soon so me and joyce stopped at canal to walk around while my fam went home. we walked around and i got 5 i<3ny tees for 10 bucks;. haa i was excitedcuz i never got a deal like that. but i guess cause its cheap ass material. and i bought this pikachu doll for my friend. joyce got me this big domo pillow and a cute little hello kitty dangly thingy for my phone. and i bought her these fluffy slippers. it was fun-ish. she came over to eat dinner. honestly i didnt want her to come over. ;x cause it would be a big hassle for my parents and this month's outcome$ was like 5thousand bucks. idk. its mean of me i know.
dec. 31st - new years eve and my cousins came over to sleep over. it was fun but there wasnt much space in the house so we had to sleep on the floor but i couldnt sleep. and i was sharing my blanket. i went back to my room and had to offer her to come with me cause she still had my blanket. she took up most of the bed AND the blanket. it was a bad sleep.
jan 1st - NEW YEARS. we went yum cha after sleepover. and had dinner. nothing that special but it was great having the fam over. though they made a big mess. ;x and we watched unborn. it was scary though. but the audio was muted so we watched it w.o the audio and it was still scary as fuck haha.
jan 2nd - well yesterday was kinda boring and blahh. i went to macy's to return the dress for the wedding. yeah yeah i know. its cheap but we dont go to weddings often and i didnt really like that dress. i started to feel sickish so i was like mad dead. and my cousin tagged along and shes such a big spender ;o

tomorrow's school. break is over. as i mentioned before, the outcome was 5 thousand bucks. im like wow. how the hell did we spend so much -.- i wish we were rich so we didnt have to worry about financial probs. and i wish i was a little bit more selfless. im really selfish and it wont hurt me to be selfless. sigh. i wish im gonna be a better person this year. hope i'll have less regrets this year. and i hope my fam will be healthy and nothing bad will happen to them !! <3

procrastinating (sp?)

ahh well my second blog !! i wanted to post one earlier but i got really lazy :/ well todays a bad monday. it was raining and i didnt have an umbrella which is totally gay ! but on the plus side, i got back my global test in which i thought i failed and i got an 85! i'm like mad proud of myself. well sorta. 85 isn't the best grade especially since i bullshited like everything and i admit, i cheated. i had my notes like right in my bag. i should stop. its a bad habit. i procrastinate too much. i'm always thinking, well i can always cheat. but when i do cheat, i get so afraid because i might get caught. :/ and i still have this homework assignment due that i didn't start. i should get started on that but, this blog is distracting me haha. me and my excuses. or should i say my excuses and i ? O.O ....lol that was stupid.

i'm almost done with watching "you're beautiful". ahhh i'm so excited because i'm like totally OBSESSED with this drama. shin woo darling <3 and jeremyyyyy (: ehh it is kinda shallow of me to like him because of his looks. but hes really cute and caring and he's just GREAT to mi nam . i wish i was mi nam. loved by many :/

as i said in my first blog, i was gonna try not washing my hair everyday but i cant :/ oh i just remembered. my best friend texted me this morning asking if we can handball on tuesday [which is tomorrow] and lately i've been feeling that i dont have enough time for anything noww. my procrastination has just gotta stop but i cant. i'm procrastinating right now. so i texted back on how i feel like i have so little time to do anything. she texted back saying "you have no time for me anymore :[" aghh i feel horrible. should i go ? ;/ i havent seen her in a while and i do wanna go. should i ?? D:

this blog is supposed to be a secret. well anonymous. my sister passed by and i quickly [well sorta fast] put my laptop onto my lap so she couldnt see what i was doing.

i had so much to say before but i forgot now :/ maybe i'll update later but i have to do my homework now. later blog ! ttyl :D

black friday

TODAY i decided to create a blog. its something i wanted to do for a long time , just to spill out my thoughts but i never really did it. right now its 11:50pm and im about to go to bed. but before i did, i took out my laptop and created a blogggg. im so happy ;D im probably not gonna write often. maybe this is gonna be my first & last time haha but i really have a lot to say. let's see, well the other day was such an unforgettable day. november 23, 2009 - the day someone broke into my house. i was still at school. it was such a big thing and i was pretty scared. i didnt lose anything but .. i keep thinking, why they didnt take anything when they had a chance to. my brother was home though, but he was in his room, sleeping. but whateverrrr. today is black friday. i woke up at like 6 in the morning and left the house at 7 with my family to si mall. omg i was soo tired but i managed to buy some stuff. i bought a bag i really liked but it didnt have the color i wanted so i picked my second choice. i bought this hoodie i was stalking for a while, and it was $20 cheaper than original price ;D i wanted to buy these jeans that were $20 but it was sorta tight. i was gonna buy it but my mom was like noo ;[ i also bought a tank top. that was it :/ a whole day just to get three things. the relative i went with to go shopping was mad annoying. im sick of her. but i cant do anything about it since shes my elder and my parents dont wanna start shit between family but its ok. i'll get over it. it's thanksgiving break so of course i gotta watch some dramas. chinese dramas : beyond the realm of conscience, born rich. korean : you're beautiful. :D omg shin woo is sooo cute :) hes my new husband. i dont know what mi nam is thinking, hes so gorgeoussssssssssss <3 oh yeah ugh, i got my period like 3 days ago and its making me so deadd :/ and my hair was gross todayy. i really wanna stop washing my hair everyday cause everyones been saying its bad for the head but i just cant help it. my pet peeve is greasy oily gross nastyyyy hair ! i hate the look and the odor of it . i cant stand it.

well its late, i should be sleeping. ;/ i kinda feel better spilling my thoughts :D maybe i should do this often. :) oo i wished on 11:11, hope it comes true ! i need my grades to be higher. well i just made my wish not come true but i had other wishes :p kekekeke

--edit ; well i just fixed up my profile and i love pink so i think its pretty :] i dont really know how to work this but i;ll get the hang out it, i hope :/ OKAY really time for my sleep !
GOOD NIGHT BLOGSPOT LOLOLOL. cant believe i just said that ;p silly me, talking to a blog ;p